I hate maca for dating justin. i hate me for hating maca i hate justin for likeing maca. i hate me for going out with zachhh i hate that im scared to kiss him. i hate that chris and i aren't dating. he is who i want to be with. but i dont think he wants to be w me cuz i won't put out but i don't wanna put out im 13! i think im in love w chris and i have 4 classes w him n it hruts to look at him. i think im bi polar and its making me really depressed lately. i hate people more then ever. i have little energy i miss everyone.
COME BACK TO ME THE WAY YOU WERE THE WAY YOU WERE WHEN WE WERE YOUNG.
so when u gonna realize those are not your wrongs to write.
i need help
help fucking help
i need to see my therapist [court ordered]
i need someone to really listen and care my dad is secrelty od depressed i no that. and i no roy loves me i ove him too so so much but jeez! n eric is my baby brother .
i need a woman. a maternal figure to talk to.
right now im all choked up and wanna cry my throats sore.
i wish someone would come up to me and say everythings going to be okay.
one day this will be better for you. this life. this love. this image. your going to be alright.
i need that. i need to feel safe. i can't date shy guys my bf is so shy.
i no people love me.
but i wish ic ould die. or vanish for a few days n people think i was gone then come back and be like ... and ppl be like i missed you i love u and rlly mean it
i no a few people would miss me. but i wish a bunch of people would miss me like when alex died rip alex<3 july 3.
i need to know people still care. i need to be confident i want to loose some wieght.
im 13 ok! im insecure and live in a house full of boys. i'm not the skinniest but im going to get fit
im gonna loose wieght and prove everyone who made fun of me wrong
im going to feel beautiful. its not like i have a mom to come to and cuddle up to
i need someone to be strong like tht for me and there is noone there. god its so har not to cry right now
maca really does care i no i say i hate her but im jealous cuz she is going out w a boy i had a secret crush on.
she says justin makes her feel hope.
i need my mom. i need a mother figure. i miss my momm
i miss her backrubs her hugs her kisses
one day im going to grow up and forget what she looks like.
i think maybe ill be ok. idk.
bye who ever reads this. [: comment if u have suggestions or advice
Comments (1)
it's really, really hard being 13. it was hard for me, anyway, with a 16 year old sister who ruled the house, a 11 year old brother who was the prince, and a 10 year old sister who was the darling of everybody's heart. to all the boys i liked i was just another guy they hung out with (still seems that way sometimes.) one boy i really liked coz he was the absolute shizzle, used to call me up and talk me into getting my girlfriends to go to movies with him. i wanted to be the one going to movies with him. but, eversomuch wanting to please him, i did what he wanted. i ran into him at the mall a couple months ago. he's still living at home, working at subway, and his girlfriend is pregnant. funny, that. anywhoos, i loved everybody ... every cute boy who came along, and even a girlfriend or two. i loved them, i wanted to be IN love with them, and i wanted them to love me. the only person i didn't love was me. dude, i so wanted attention. i wrote this paper at school that got me into some trouble, and everybody said, "she's just wanting attention." my big sis got mad at me because i embarrassed her, which i was sorry about. but then she started telling me about how much she envied me because i am "the smart one" of the family (which i always hated ... big sis was the athletic one, the strong one, and baby sis was the pretty one, the delightful and charming one ... gah.) it took me a while, but eventually i figured out that i could have the most fun just being me and being a part of things going on around me. i found out that the more i smiled, the more people smiled back, the more enthusiasm and interest i showed in other people, the more they had for me ... stuff like that. people reflect what you give them, usually. but then, that's why it's so hard to be 13. most other 13 year olds are having the same thoughts as you, and so everybody is down. i know it's hard, but the worst thing you can do is let yourself sink down and turn in on yourself. energy and a bright smile is all you really need to get started. really.
and don't worry, things will be okay. but you have to move yourself in that direction.